i can not use my real name due to the fact that my abusers cyber stalk me. so i will use the pseudonym "obi won free". ever since i was a child i was abused sexually, first by father and his friends, later brother started. every atrocity that someone can do to a child i endured. it went on and on for years. about 13-14 years ago i made a suicide attempt and ended up in the hospital on a forced stay. when i got out i was treated like a freak. not to long after my mother got ill and ended up passing away. the abuse intensified. while she was sick i started using my fingernails to gouge my left arm all over. i guess i was pleading for help but either no one cared or noticed what was occuring. later i relocated and moved to using a razor blade, cut myself on legs,arms, and shoulders, mostly anywhere i could hide. ended up in the hospital again for psych reasons. i am currently dealing with a family that i cant trust. and also coming out of the closet. needless to say things are not easy right now.
p.s. forgive my brevity, i am not a writer.
