Crimson Tears ((No More Secrets))

this is the story and life of a child told by her foster/friend's mom....

My  name is Kaitlynn. My daughter Aimee had this best friend we will call her Lexi. They have been best friends since pre-school. Aimee had just had her 15th birthday, Lexi was about to have her 16th birthday. Let's start with Aimee always a happy child. up until she was 7 years old.  a stranger attacked Aimee he put her in the hospital, Lexi never left her bed side, she was the first person besides me that Aimee saw. Over the years i knew that something wasn't right with Lexi, what child always has bruises all over and making excuses oh i fell again. When really she was screaming out for help. I had called CPS 3 times before Lexi was even 10 years old they never found anything bullcrap!

Years go by and i slowly watch both girls start to fade away. By age 13 Aimee had 2 different STD's. Both girls kept getting skinnier and skinner i always heard oh mom we just ate or we aren't hungery will make something later. Aimee's favorite to use was mom your such a worry wort. We will eat before bed i promise. In 2005 Lexi's life was turned upside down when her mother went to prison. She threw Lexi's little sister over the stair banster and killed her all because she wouldn't listen. I will never forget that day,i was dropping Aimee off and  Lexi came running out of the house covered in blood which i thought was her, she was rambling on my sissy, my sissy, i set Lexi in the car and ran inside to see blood every where her sister was already dead. Lexi was never the same.At her sister's funeral Aimee set Lexi on her lap and just held her! I started noticing she was with drawling even more then normal.

The Following Year my Husband passed away. We all took that death really hard even Lexi. she always said "he was like the proper father she never got" i took that as a cry for help! I called CPS yet again and nothing was done. Lexi has two beautiful daughters now. Here we are in 2010. Aimee is 15 and Lexi just turned 16. A few weeks ago Lexi made a facebook, became friends with a wonderful person(because of kassi the owner of this site). This lady brought the true real Lexi out the Lexi that was hidding for years. All because Kassi cared enough to suggest they become friends cause kassi knew something wasn't right. Lexi finally came forward about all the abuse from her father, the beating, rape and torture he put her thru. She finally showed me her cuts and i was shocked to see that she was hurting herself like this! I didn't know what to do, the first thing i did was took her to the police station to file chargers on her father. The cutting i had no idea, Kassi helped me with that. Lexi moved in with me and Aimee and i could tell the girls had a secret going on. But i was just the mother so i knew deep down they would never tell me. Then one day Lexi comes to me and tells me that she walked in on Aimee and my boyfriend having sex. I was in shock! a child and a 50 something year old man?

 i was in shock, didn't know what to do. I laid in bed the next day almost all day. Weeping. Scared for my daughter. talking with the lady who helped Lexi come out about the abuse. All i could hear was Lexi in the kitchen singing like she use to do all the time. it had been a long time since i heard her really sing like she meant it. Her voice was raging through-out the house. Aimee mad at lexi for telling she was locked up in her room. Lexi went up to tell her breakfast was done, she knocked 3 or 4 times and no answer. Lexi opened the door to find Aimee laying on her bedroom floor with the pill bottle in her hand. As a mother you hope you never have to choose your child's life or death. But that's what it came down to. Aimee was on life support. We talked to her, Lexi sang to her. Lexi never left her side. Aimee passed away. Lexi's cutting go so much worse after that. She was put in a hospital but she got out and slit her throat. Lexi is still alive even though i know deep down she still wants to die. And honestly i dont blame her. Im struggling with it all myself. Trying to keep myself and a very scared child together. Lexi is going to be placed in a hospital for long term care until she is really truely ready to be out in the world again. While moving our stuff out of our house into this two bedroom apartment. My Sister and her Husband found Aimee and Lexi's journal. For some reason they shared a journal every other writing was the other ones. i'd like to share a page that they wrote together!

 In Loving Memory Aimee was a special girl! I knew her personally...

She will always be missed!

Gone but not forgotten...

Missed more and more everday!