 | My Daddy My Hero: Okay this is a huge step for me, i dont even know where to begin! I guess back when i was about 5 years old. My daddy got really sick, he was sick for about a year or a little less then a year. it's just like a vivid dream now. The doctor's said he wouldn't make it thru the night, well he proved them all wrong. I remember praying God for just one more birthday with my daddy, to see that surprised loook on his face when i opened my gifts like he didn't know what they got me for my birthday. The only difference this time was he really didn't know what my mom had gotten me. On my 6th birthday i crawled into my daddy's hospital bed with him cause he said he was tired and wanted to take his daily nap, so i laid down with him and i slept and slept and slept. it felt like we slept for hours that day with his arms around me like he always he did. i woke up first like always, gave him his big hugs and kisses but he didn't move. I remember crying out MOMMY did daddy go with the angels now? My mom came running with the doctors and the nurses behind her she ripped me outta that bed so fast. On my 6th birthday my Dear Daddy passed away with me by his side! |
 The Funeral: I really dont remember the funeral to much, it's more of a blurr then anything now. I remember that's the last time i seen my Auntie. I remember wishing i could go with him, but then i looked at my mom's face and i knew she needed me here. As we walked by the casket we all threw our flowers ontop of it and i threw the last picture i ever drew for him ontop of it so he would have it in heaven with him! |  |
 | The Stranger: Have you ever had to pretend like you didn't hear or see something so horrible that still haunts you 11 years later? I hope my mother never see's this site....I was 7 years old and i heard something in the back yard. At this point it was just me and my mother living in our house. I went into my mothers room and woke her up cause i was scared, she sent me back to bed and said it's all ok. im not sure how long i was in my room for, then i heard glas shatter i ran into the hallway and my mom came running out as well she pushed me into the bathroom and told me to lock the door and not to come out for no one, not even her(she had a key to get into the bathroom). i heard a lot of breaking and i got even more scared hearing my mom screaming no, please dont. i opened the bathroom door and went to her bedroom door that was cracked open, there was a man inside her room. i stood in the doorway for what felt like forever i watched this stranger rape my mother, when he was pulling up his pants i ran back to the bathroom and locked the door, all i could hear now was my mom saying no im the only one here. then my mom opened the bathroom door and told me nothing was wrong and to go back to bed. |
The Cutting/Eating Disorder/Depression: keeping this secret has turned my life upside down. I started cutting myself hitting burning and even stopped eating. At 7 years old i was cooking cleaning basically raising myself. i had to walk to school by myself for blocks. My mom barely moved out of her bed. Then Came along Jemhia. He brought my mom out of this funk she was in and she became herself again! me on the other hand i was still going down hill drinking and drugs now. Jemhia and my mother slipt up for a few months which he got with another women and had my step-sister, he got full custody of the little angel!
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 | My mom and step father slipt up yet again and my mom meet this guy we will just call him Brian He moved in with us for awhile. He started hitting me for any reason he could. I hid it from my mom.One night he came into my room covered my mouth pulled up my shirt and pulled down my shorts and raped me. did i ever tell no. should i have? yes. 9 months later out came Keshia Rae my light my life. I stopped everything, drinking, drugs, even cutting. I wanted to live not just for me but for my little girl! |
The Accident: The End: I will never forget the day my family and my life was torn apart forever! My step-father was taking my sister to school and Kes was so upset cause papa was leaving and not taking her, so i packed her into her car seat(i was running late anyways, i was going to wait for him to get back to go to school myself) He never showed up to pick me up. I was so mad at him i cried the whole way to school cause i had to wake up my mom and then still make it to my first class in time. it was starting out to be a horrible day right at the start of it. I was maybe in school for all of an hour and half maybe two hours and the principal and school social worker came knocking on the door with the police we need to talk to Davadee. My heart sank. I slowly got up and walked to the door. My teacher and i stepped outside the door and the police officer was like we need you to come with us. Ummmmmmm.....No what's going on? Young lady please just come with us we need to take you home. No, please just tell me i have to know now! "Your step-father was in an accident" Is he ok? Imm sorry to inform you but your sister and daughter where killed instantly! Instantly ran thru my head like a million times. I hit my knees in the middle of the hallway. My best friend who was listening at the door came running out and wrapped her arms around me so tight i remember i couldn't breathe! My step-father has been in a mental hospital since the accident. I want him home so bad. R.I.P. Nahara Lee, and Keshia Rae. I've since then started cutting again. But I've just recently found out that im pregnant again with another girl! Things are going to be different this time! Im Davadee Rae and this is my Story<3 |   |
